She Was Not an AngelI need time away from this crazy world, But the insanity surrounds me like shimmering swirls, And I can’t get away. All the beauty and the secrets draw me nearer still. There’s no hope of love or stability here. My angel has left me for something wrong. The darkness has faded her beautiful song. I thought everything would be wonderful, If only she stayed behind, And let me handle this delusional ride. But now I see she wasn’t an angel, just a girl. She has also been caught up in this crazy world.She Was Not an Angel
Prepared for Change.This journey has never felt so real. I fall on my knees and beg not to feel. Everything lands on my shoulders, But I just let it sit, And I wish to be older,Prepared for Change.
And wiser, And know what I’m doing again. I’m tired of feeling like I’ll never win, And always feel pain. I’m so sick of just lying to myself, But I can’t let the truth see the light at all. I haven’t prepared for change, Or to fall… Or to let go of what I have. I fear I’ll go mad, And forget why I’ve been put on this earth.
August 7th, 2005.Aug 7 2005August 7th, 2005.
It slowly creeps toward me, but the reflection on the glass keeps it at bay, because I can't see it clearly, and the worst of it is, I know that it's coming, though I scream and I cry, for it not to come near me, I can tell it stares blankly, having heard this before, and as all my defenses slowly fail me, I reach out for hands, that aren't really there, yet they sparkle in front of me, when I'm ready to fall, and I ignore the thing chasing me, and lay my head down, ...perhaps sleep will delay, the claiming of what it
Screaming Echos.She stood, sleeping, and forgetting. Her soft voice mumbles and sparkles surround... There, along the moonlit shore, Away from the horror. I want to see her, touch her, be her, But I'm stuck here. Petals touch her skin, She soaks them up within. My screaming echos softly, But she hears one thing. Why did she give me everything, When I deserved nothing? But now she takes it back, and I'm alone again, But I'll sit here and wait for her to return.Screaming Echos.
~Jaz
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"It seemed like a good idea at the time..."
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